JADED/JUPITER

//Surprise, surprise!

2010-12-09T05:09:00.000+08:00

I'VE MOVED!

http://ifyouseekjupiter.tumblr.com

//From me

2010-12-08T03:16:00.000+08:00

From my photobooth file :

//Spare

2010-12-06T11:06:00.000+08:00

So I have some spare time left to come up with a post now because of the mighty Roguy that is supposed to be fetching us right now. By us I mean J and I and instead of being here now she's at home just got out of shower. -_-

Here are the photobooth pictures. Maybe you guys have seen it in facebook, idk.

Doing the Joanne smile. hahahaa. we look alike what right...? :p

LOL I force her to do the center parting with me hahahaha

Twins

WAAAA look at my waist hahahahaha

I got biceps k

K that's all..... I think I'm gonna go sleep.

//Where the wild things are

2010-12-05T15:39:00.004+08:00

Screen caps

//W.B.FAIL

2010-12-04T23:24:00.000+08:00

The photos didn't turn out nice because..................... I totally forgot about the existence of White Balance. The whole time I was wondering why the hell is the picture so yellow and I managed to convince myself that its a natural thing that all cameras do. LOL. But here are the pictures..

Went to CS to meet J and get her her 10 months late birthday present. Hahahaha x4000008. Then off to my apartment :

Left 3 because I forgot to take photos of them and ate the others.

Durian fillings!

This was her present from me.

Check out the pockets!

Though I didn't finish watching this movie but I'm going to watch it again soon. I'd do some screen caps. One DVD I don't regret buying.

I like my hair hehehehehe

Favourite shot

"Ahh!!" Hahahahha some epic..

Bokeh!

That's all from my camera. I'd upload the photobooth pictures in another post! =)

//Postcards (Of Subang) From JB! #3

2010-12-04T00:00:00.002+08:00

Last night in Subang :

//Photo-Spam-All-The-Way-In-Starbucks

2010-12-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

The internet is being a total PMS-sy bitch right now it stalls my upload like mad. MAAAAAD!! Can't do a Postcards (Of Subang) From JB #3 post because of that and I'm quite excited you know, I don't know why la I think I Bipolar today hahaha. ~~I think I'd do the 3rd postcard post another day.~~ (edit)OK YES THE PHOTOS GOT UPLOADED WHEEEEE. I'D UPLOAD THEM AT12AM LOL(/edit) Meanwhile, here are the photobooth photos I took with my sister today at Starbucks. CS really boring, no point going there also. JB is sooooooo boring Sigh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Oh, I have some videos taken today too..Check the end of this post! (=

Hahaha I got like 4 super huge pimples on my right cheek that used to be pimple-free. Sigh, so sad. You tell me how to have self-esteem like that?!?!

Don't you just "looove" my Tang Yuan face!

Mirror effect hahaha

Tweety bird mouth of mine.

Me having center parting and my sister having massive amount of mustache

Me center parting makes me look so coooooooool

How you like me now huh!

Hahahahaha you'll know the reason for this photo later when you view one of the videos

Imitating MinKyu's Number 1 ultimate pose!!

HAHAHAHA LMAO TWO BYUNGSHINS

................................and that was only the photobooth pictures. From the camera :

Now that's my Poo The Macbook Air

Videos :

That is all! =) Gonna cough up a few other posts later.....

What I wore :

Shirt : Roxy Pants : Guess Hat : Random shop Belt : Mum's Ring : Marc Jacobs

//Crew pass

2010-12-02T00:46:00.000+08:00

People I worked with

JSL with the down syndrome kids and IJ Convent choir in the background

Free KFC dinner

Goodie bags we packed. Lol ok count me out. I merely just "threw" in coffee packets like playing the carvinal games hahaha

My ballet friend! Celine!

Hahahahaha JL's blingbling Fancy rocker pants

SLB dancers. Don't ask me what SLB stands for.. I don't know. Haha

Standing from "afar" from where Adibah Noor was standing. Lol. I did went beside her, but then I "ran" away

Jerome A.K.A. Goofy

That's Adibah Noor. In case if you don't know her, she's a singer. I love her Terlalu Istimewa the most.

Super cool/professional looking watch ever!

The one joanne was wearing even more pro! Hahaha

I'm richhhhhh~

Where the Sultanah sat.

I thinks she trying to make my "sad" face A.K.A. her favourite face of me. CEH no la she does this all the time

Some charity dinner organized by the Johor Student Leaders Council. We (those who were in black shirt and "slacks" and red tie) voluntereed to help out at the dinner. Well I guess we did well cause the Madam in charge wanted to treat us to a lunch hahahaha. OK bye!!

Postcards (Of Subang) From JB! #2

2010-11-30T02:12:00.001+08:00

Forgot to include the after-party pictures into the previous post.

From Kaytrieese's camera :

Ahahaha damn cheekopek my face!

I forgot what I was laughing at -_-

From my camera :

My falsies falling off~~~~

Worst drinks on the table

They said it sucks

His face proves it all hahahaha

He said his drink sucks too

MinKyu's drink. Graveyard hahahaha. Drink already straight go into coffin.Get it?? Means it sucks! Haha. The straw is a cross.

Look at her face! hahahaa

Apparently his drink was ok..

Dog pose

Guy that keeps on offering us offers

This was supposed to be an explainatory shot but. This drink tastes so horrible! Its like. drinking the fever medicine. The pink one.

Very boomz hair

Okaayz finish. Any of you "nocturnal animals"???? Come let's talk on formspring!!

//Postcards (Of Subang) From JB!

2010-11-28T16:41:00.000+08:00

//Wild dreams Wild chases

2010-11-28T06:00:00.000+08:00

List of what I want : (Or what you could possibly get me for my birthday Hahahahahahasighhaha)

The Principles of Uncertainty by Maira Kalman
The Perks of Being A Wallflower by Stephen Schbosky
Fujifilm Instax 210
Ray Ban Clubmaster

I've been searching Hi and Low for both the books. MPH, Popular, Borders.. I've found the first book on Borders but the mighty Hahakenhaha don't let me buy it at that time because he knew a place that sells book at lesser than half the price of it........which then led me to buy 6 books, non of which is them two because they don't stock them.

The instax because.. well I've always wanted a polaroid camera and then now that polaroid does not produce films anymore.. I guess Fujifilm makes a good substitution!

Been wanting a Ray Ban wayfarer since.....forever. Then I came across the Clubmaster and go "Hey, that suit my character more, IMHO" So yes, Wayfarer eliminated, now I'm going after the Clubmaster

Oh look its 6AM I should probably sleep.

//Indomee

2010-11-28T02:56:00.001+08:00

Picture 1 : So I was hungry at 2AM, dragged my sister downstairs and tried to look for food to eat. Took the whole milk from the fridge and it was expired, so moved on the bread...and I don't want to have bread. Opened the cupboard to find indomee...left one. Then we can't cook the indomee cause my dad on the alarm so we can't get to the wet kitchen. I then got a brilliant idea : To cook the indomee using boiled water. And ate it from the tupperware cause I couldn't find a plate. Not bad huh!!

Picture 2 : Sister got two dutch lady milk inside her bag. One strawberry flavoured one chocolate flavoured. We fought over the chocolate one and guess who won??? ;-) And its in some weird size.. its not the normal dutch lady size its smaller than the normal one and bigger than the mini one. Hhaha

ok bye!!

//Wicked schemes

2010-11-26T12:08:00.000+08:00

Top : Bangkok, Thailand Shorts : Topman Necklace : Forever 21 Watch : Flea market Brown Bracelet : Diva Black rubber thingy : Random pushcarts

Bye all, meeting J for karaoke to make up with the first time of us not meeting each other on the 25th of every month (Yes, we meet each other on every 25th of every month) and to have some heart2heart and brainwashing session.

If we're all lucky, I'll be back with pictures!

(= Have a nice day!

//Underage

2010-11-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

I'm back in JB. I had fun in Subang. Miss the company there.

//just a while ago

2010-11-25T04:33:00.000+08:00

Ordered Mcdelivery at 2AM+

Been a long time since I last had apple pie. Yummmmmms

Oh and this was Mcdonalds second round haha! @Lloydlxl for helping me tapau hahahhaa. When my mcdelivery arrived it didn't come with the nuggets and I paid for it! Damn, should've checked. Called back to get them delivered back but nah.. the McD did call back to double confirm though, but we've waited for around an hour to no avail of chicken mcnuggets hahaha. Ok back to what I was saying.. I regret for not ordering McFlurry too so I came up with ideas like when the macs man came I shall flirt with him to get him help me get a McFlurry or have him drive me there.... OK FINE I don't see the point in telling but hahahaha I find it funny la!

Ok...yes I still haven't bathe at 4.33AM. Bye! I feel like a pregnant horse right now..

//how lonesome

2010-11-25T00:42:00.000+08:00

Last day/night in Subang. :'(

Okzzz here's some photobooth overdose : (If you don't want to see the repeated poses/faces/etc then I suggest you to not scroll down. Cuz there wouldn't be any updates...for now)

My nose : One of my self esteem killer

I LOVE THIS HAHAHA LOOK AT SUH DAMN CUTE

All of today's photobooth pictures. K thanks bye. Tonight's a lonely night.........................................................................................................

//Hi...

2010-11-23T01:40:00.001+08:00

It's been my 13th day here. I felt like I'd lived here forever hahahaha. I don't even feel like updating this space anymore. Nobody reads it anyway. Sigh, makes me so damn sad. Everything...

Here are some pictures :

This is my face when I'm walking... Not angry/pissed off/scary what right...!

I'm going back to JB in a few days time. I really don't want to go back. I don't know why. I feel sad. Hahaha but my pocket kosong already. I don't know what I'm thinking really. Maybe I don't want to go back because I like being alone here way better compared to being alone in JB. People are weird there.. I just don't feel some sort of connection. I don't know what I'm saying. Yea Yea Yea Ya'll can go have a bad impression on me now. I'm not that much of a good person anyway. I would say I'm a horrible person.

Sigh.. Oh well. I seriously don't understand why am I so unhappy with my life. I mean, I should stop wanting more and stop and look at my life for a while, its better than a lot of people, and for once just be contented with everything. I really don't want to feel this way but I'm losing control. I want to be contented with my appearance. I want to be contented with the things I have. I want to be contented with the people around me. But I am not. And I don't know what to do.

Everyday I tell myself, "Hey, you're not bad yourself!" Then I'd be Ok.. Something will definitely happen and spoil my day/mood with me having to see myself in the picture (There's a lot I look really horrible/unacceptable). Or that somebody must indirectly point out my flaws, I hate this the most. I don't care if you directly point out my flaws but indirectly pointing it out just really makes me feel as if I'm a trash. What hurts the most is that.. I can't do anything about it and everyone around me is sick of me feeling this way. Made me think a lot, question my existence like.. "Why the hell would I want to go on with life when everybody else is sick of me." I'm fucking insecure like that. I need people to reassure me that I am acceptable. And you know what sucks? Having to know that people around you reassuring you in a way that portrays a burdened feeling when they do it.

Maybe all these happen because I'm lonely. The feeling where you are around with people but you are still lonely, and delusional.

All the best for those who are taking SPM tomorrow! All the best for those who are having their exam tomorrow too.

Have a great night. Have a great day ahead tomorrow. Bye all. End of emo post.

//Mid

2010-11-22T03:11:00.001+08:00

O hai yes i haven't sleep yet and I haven't bathe yet hahahahahha bored la!

Just had a talk with The Bestfriend and wooooooooooooo I think I'm going to FIGHT! Ok byebye.. Eh somebody talk to me on formspring leh. Boring la... hahaha

//sleaze ball

2010-11-18T14:06:00.000+08:00

Picture 1 - 3 : Photobooth with them forgetting hahakenhaha's in the car waiting for Kay and I. Lol.
Picture 4 : Books I bought! At a very very cheap price!
Picture 5 : Look at the RM60 discount! Everything in the bookstore is like.....above 50% off the price you buy in regular bookstores like MPH, Popular, Amazon, Borders, Kinokuniya.... Some awesome deal seriously.

I think I will upload the pictures I have with me when I'm back in jb in just a post. Really don't wanna do anything when I'm here. This is supposed to be a resting trip. SUPPOSED TO BE. I didn't get much rest in the end. So yeah, updates prolly would be from pictures found in my photobooth. But we can still talk in formspring!

//All dressed up

2010-11-16T03:23:00.001+08:00

~~Let's play a game. Can ya'll guess what I attended??????????? Winner(s) get uh.......a praise from me lol! hahaha I'm just super bored right now so guesssss??? Tell me on formspring!~~

Waaaa sian, we already got winner hahahahaha (=

Clues :

//It's so fluffy I'm gonna die!!!!!!!

2010-11-13T16:25:00.000+08:00

Best buy yesterday!

Meet Fluffy the Unicorn! Finally found one that I like =D Been wanting to get it since I watched Despicable Me. I remember I was krazy over that movie LOL.

Fluffy The Unicorn wasn't that expensive I was shocked to look at her price so I bought one without hesitation hwahahaha. BUT! It sheds fur like crazy (the pink fur thing). Forgot to check it before I bought it. But it's ok, apparently my nose can take it so all's well.

I am supposed to be in Genting right now but I had to bail out on them. Reason undisclosed.

K bye, had a long day yesterday I'm going to continue sleeping now.

//Get-away

2010-11-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

Hello! I'm at Subang now heeeheeeheeeheee looooove the company here (=

Top : Zara from Taiwan, Jeans : Uniqlo, Belt : Mum's

Sigh, how the second picture can be so deceiving. I rrly hope my legs would be that size in real life. But I shouldn't complain, I know.

(= HAVE A GOOD SATURDAY!

Ps : I will be doing "looks" post more often since now I have photobooth. Been meaning to do this since like, last year! Finally now I've got photobooth.. So Yay or Nay? I hope I get good feedbacks?

//Little girls

2010-11-10T22:29:00.002+08:00

When I was 6! This is what we call too much make up. It made me look like a mini geisha lol hahaha except I'm in a cheongsam. It was one of the Chinese New Year the family gathered in Perak and we had this "pageant" thing going on. Good times, good times. I look forward to the next time the whole family gathers because its always so much fun.

Picture One : My sister got crowned as the champion hahaha. Damn sad I should've won! I got runner up and my cousin Elaine got second runner up. Gone were the days I really wanted to be a pageant champion until...last year. Now I'm just so scared of all these stuff.

Picture Two : All of the contestants haha. Lol Sheena (The little girl in front of me), her face really like angry hahaha. So cute la.

Anyway, notice how I never looked into the camera or have my face straight up? I have no idea why. I like to look down on most of the photo capturing moment, I don't know I guess I was shy...? Lol. No seriously, I have a few photos of my not looking at the camera but smiling and posing away. Lol poser!

***

Can't resist posting this up. I can't stop laughing at this it's too cute. Hahahahaha Girls do that too!!!!

So I told this girl I like her....
And she was like,
I like you too,
And I was like :

see the original version : http://sapphiresailor.tumblr.com/post/1534280701/so-i-told-this-girl-i-like-her

//Decidero

2010-11-09T01:02:00.003+08:00

"IT'S NAME IS POO! AND ITS SO COOL LIKE THE FISH IN THE POOL"

Hahaha I am too bored. Too bored. I don't know what to do and I can't sleep so I decided to do this. And in case you're wondering, Poo is the name I decided to name my new laptop. Hahahaha. It was a tough fight between Poo and Panda. Maybe I should name my red ipod nano panda lol lol lol we'll just assume it is colour blind k. Oh no what am I talking about.

The more sleep I'm not getting the more time I have to type nonsense in here and make appear as a bimbo that keeps on whining all day long. I am hungry. And its dark here..

***

ANG GUYS, I'M BACK ON TWITTER.

Click on the image to get redirected, or click here.

Let's tweet everybody! (Click on the image to get redirected) Don't wanna lose ya'll as my followers hahaha (=

//Razor-thin

2010-11-08T16:17:00.001+08:00

GUESS WHAT GOT DELIVERED TODAY?!?!?!?!?!?!

I LOVE DHL!!!!!!!!!

Happiness overload Wahahahahahahaha. Anyway! Is anyone here a mac user? Go download FaceTime at the apple homepage and we can talk! Its like skype but for Mac users, iPhone, iTouch.

Anything to recommend?!? Total noob here. This thing is super thin and light compared to the other versions of macbooks. You can go to the apple reseller store to check it owt. =D Its so thin I can cut a person up with it hahahaha

//EXPOSED

2010-11-06T14:24:00.004+08:00

If you want to understand, there's no need to ask me. Just take your time to listen to the songs. But even if you don't want to understand me, then, still, listen to the songs. They are great.

//lights

2010-11-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

Deepavali at Nut's house! Thanks to Roguy's dad for the transport (=

Ransack closet

J : You don't wna take pictures meh??
V : Ok!ok! I want! faster take. *SMILES*
J : Haiyoh that's so a vicky smile hahaha
V : huh whaaaaat? Heeeheeeheeehaahahaho

Nose itched like maaad! I think I'm allergic to mutton or something hahaha. no la.

Haha Nut....nut.

Closer look

Ini namanya Satu Malaysia! (This is called 1Malaysia)

Look at Nithiyah!! hahahaha so cute!

Picture spoiler hahaha

Roguy!!

Some bubble tea + talking session with Roguy (=

She is soooo pretty

Her looks could kill

Been a long time. I'm disappointed.

Okzzz that's all everyone. Hope ya'll had a great day today. Have a great one tomorrow! HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

//Movie Marathon

2010-11-03T22:45:00.001+08:00

Wednesday caught myself skipping school and had a 'movie marathon' that only consist of 2 movies. Saw myself getting broke, saw myself laughing hysterically, saw myself fooling around, saw myself making white lies, saw myself getting embarrased.

SLIT MY WRIST

ANYWAY LOOK AT MY TWIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahaha ew omg fail

and then surprised Hui Mei. Look at her priceless face..

We got her the iPod shuffle for her next year's birthday present. Yes, its waaaay to early but we couldn't help ourselves to get her in our iPod clan you see..

My bestfriend J

I love this picture. Finally somebody hugging me uh....... LOL

Like paparazzi uh

I like this

I LIKE THIS

That's all for tonight everybody. I'm dead beat..

//Yes

2010-11-02T23:07:00.001+08:00

If I still being selfish and me being irritated by the littlest thing. No seriously I cannot take this kind of life. I need peace. Why won't people just grant me that. I don't care if I will be lonely forever or have no one to love me but at least let there be peace. They say they don't have enough fund for charity. But they have enough fund for a war.

I like loneliness way too much and I dislike people that come in the way and take that away from me. I will die if this goes on. I need to get out of this shit hole. Give me a decent place I'd pick that anytime. Give me to choose between life and death, Death anytime. Seriously this is getting out of control. Today, I had enough. Stress from afternoon to night Why the fuck would I need all that?

Yes there are issues with me and this is me finally trying to be 'open' about it and typing it here because I don't want to take all these anymore. I have issues with myself, things around me, people around me and I am NOT Ok. I will never be. That's it. I am not typing this to gain attention or whatshit or sympathy so I do not need all that from you people. Stop asking me if I am ok. NO I AM NOT OK GET IT? NOW SHUT THE FUCK UP DO NOT TELL ME THAT YOU CARE ABOUT ME BECAUSE I DON'T FUCKING GIVE TWO FLYING FUCKS ABOUT IT.

LET ME DIE ALONE.

//survival

2010-11-01T20:42:00.002+08:00

Hello 你好 Hai Bonjour Hallo Ciao はじめまして 안녕하세요 Olá Hola สวัสดี

This year passed by so super quickly eh? Its already November. Its quite sad really. But its ok! There's much more things to look forward in life..(like a new laptop...) Hahahhaha I should stop with that I know. Been spamming twitter with that I am so sick of myself.

Anyway! I received a formspring message saying that I shouldn't make this space into a photologue cause then I'd lose whatever readers I have.... Nooooo I don't wanna lose ya'll. Wanna protrude into your life by constantly 'annoy' ya'll with whatever i have leh. Hahaha so what do you guys think! Should I continue talking crap here or just post pictures and get the hell of it done????

I can't wait for the end year holidays! One more paper to go and I'm done! No actually there are still 3 papers for me. Yes that includes Pendidikan Jasmani(PE) and Sivik (Human contributions) and that ends like what... 10th of november? Holding us back from going holidays and stuff. Whatever I'm going to have my self declared break. So many plans this time round.....I cannot wait for it...I always do.

DAMN UNIQLO IS NOW OPEN IN FAHRENHEIT 88. NEED TO GO THERE. NEEEEEEEEEEED!!!

Ah well I should stop my nonsense here byebye all.

January through October summary : We all survive

//Odds

2010-10-30T13:00:00.000+08:00

I don't even feel like having to keep up with this blog anymore. Photologue from now onwards, I think.

//more

2010-10-29T23:13:00.001+08:00

More..

//Cheap

2010-10-29T20:31:00.000+08:00

See the rest of them here

//BBQ N8

2010-10-28T19:29:00.001+08:00

So my bro had this after-pmr barbecue night thing yesterday...

I'm a fire starting bitch!! Hahaha funny how I'm always the one starting the fire. No really....

Folding the aluminium foils

Music - Entertainment

The left one is folded by my sister. Right one by me. Can see I anyhow fold one. What's the use of folding it so nicely when its gna be chao da?? Hhahaa. Oh ya hers caught fire. Lol

Bro

Very handsome botak dog, Poco

He eyes on the food that people drop for the whole night. And he is fast like lightning bolt

And then my sister and I loser like that no self esteem ran upstairs to put on eyeliner hahaha

My dad tak layan

Yes I am a sad kid I frown every single time

Idk what to classify this face as lor. Act cute fail + act innocent fail + annoyed. Best fits.

She is so fair I not happy

I annoy my bro he not happy

The cupcakes my bro was promoting

Focus on me laaaa

Ya my bro went to change his shirt

I am an irresponsible bbq-er

The last bottle of Vitamilk

The oei-faster-take-lah!-i-waiting face

Another

Went out to That's to chill

Seemingly trying to study for biology

Epic fail. Read the same sentence for 5 minutes haha. Gave up after 10.

So that sums up my wednesday night.

Severe headache now. I should go..

//Can't Sleep

2010-10-27T00:45:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha what I rather do than study add maths. Whatever, I'm going to leave the paper blank anyway. Tell me how when I don't know how to do!! Lol.

Can't sleep. I drew a human portrait. To all you 'nocturnal' humans, this is an extra kick for you to not fall asleep ha. ha. ha. Here I present you my first ever ~~human~~ monster portrait. LAO AH MAH

Quite fail la right.. I think the original version is better, I meant the real drawing.. with better shadows/shades. (= Don't know what's wrong I couldn't draw teeth for her. I ended up giving her cavities HAHA so I changed her mouth.

I can't sleep and I'm hungry. I can go on and on and on about the drawing but ya'll would probably say I show off, attention seeking but all I really wanna do is uh. I dunno lah! Sighyaiyaiiii~~~~ What to doooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sooooooo bored.

Maybe I shall force myself sleep. Or is anybody awake? Let's talk on formspring!

//They just did

2010-10-25T17:07:00.000+08:00

So I wanted to kill time by posting a post today just so maybe the download would be faster(???? <--- lol) and then I jsut found out all four of the games I'm downloading into my iphone just died on me great... and they include The Sims Ambition, Worms, Street Fighter and Surviving High School. What the heck......

But anyway I am super bored so look at my face hahahawtfhahaha

Lol the BW pictures should be in a collage........ idk what happened. haha

//Remainders from the 21st celebration x Rockin' & Rollin'

2010-10-24T19:09:00.000+08:00

Pictures from my camera :

(Yes I know it was quite some time ago but before I could upload them into the computer my sister took my camera with her to Subang. So yeh)

That's all! (=

//Foreground

2010-10-23T18:26:00.003+08:00

Friday :

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Take a step back. Fucking look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. You are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate everyone because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, or your best friend betrayed you, your father hit you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. Cry when you need to then let go when it's time. Don't hang onto painful memories just because you're afraid to forget. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that aren't worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted. Stop taking life for granted. Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone. Question things. Tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create. Imagine. Inspire. Share something wonderful. Meet new people. Make someone's day. Follow your dreams. Live your life to it's full potential. Just live, dammit. Let go of all of the horrible things in your life and fucking live. And one day, when you're old, look back with no regrets.

-source : tumblr, by anonymous.

***

It's time for me to live for myself. Live for my body. Be happy about it. Don't care what my parents think, don't care what my siblings think. Don't care what my friends think. Don't care about the judgements from the people I care. Let go of what I think about myself. I will be confident about myself. About the way I look, the way I speak, the way I act. I will be proud of my body. I don't want to care anymore about the way you think of my body. I don't want to be afraid to wear short pants and the cellulites I have. I want and will wear whatever I want to wear. I don't want to be afraid of my bulging tummy and my arms, my thighs and my face fats. I want to be confident. I want to be beautiful to me. I don't have to be beautiful for all of the others. I can't please anyone.

To you little fuckers that judge every fucking one. WHAT IS WRONG WITH BEING FAT?

This is for you judgemental people :

Just because you are skinnier or you are prettier or you are smarter does not give you the right to judge people and look down on them.

//Know your personality through drawing

2010-10-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

source : http://www.ladyzona.com/your-personality-and-drawing/

Just about everybody doodles on their notebook once in a while. Maybe you're bored in a meeting at work, or your date is late in getting to the coffee shop.

These little drawings might seem meaninglyss, but psychologists say that these doodles reflect portions of your personality of what you may be feeling. Take a look at what you drew before you toss the paper into the trash.

The shapes, and even their positions on the page, give insight to your current emotional state, what is currently bothering you or what you're hoping for in the future.

Drawing in the center of the page could mean you're optimistic about the day ahead of you. If you're feeling a little reserved today you might doodle down the left-hand side of your page. If doodling down the right-hand side, you may be looking for something new and exciting in your life.

Feeling a lack of joyfulness might lead you to draw small flowers or tiny suns. Perhaps you're silently trying to cheer up by drawing those signs of happiness in your everyday life. Don't let melancholy overwhelm you.

Drawing spirals might mean you don't easily ask for help when you need it. Your friends might come to you when they're needy because you're good at helping, but now's the time to help yourself.

Polygons could indicate you're detail-oriented. you think things throught before starting something. However, when things don't go according to plan, you can become easily confused and lost. Take a step back every once a while and look at the bigger picture.

Doodling a small, symmetrical house shows you feel harmony in your life. A house surrounded by roads could mean you're looking for a way out. A lack of doors and windows could mean you're feeling trapped in your current situation.

If your hand unconciously draw hearts or lips onto the page, you're porbably feeling calm. You're happy, but you could fear rejection. Don't be afraid to let others know how you feel.

You might be holding on to some disappointment if you're drawing nets or squares. Maybe you didn't say what you needed to at the right time.

An arrow or sword pointing downward shows you might feel a little lost, while an upward point shows you feel accomplisehd.

Drawing faces and bodies across the page could illustrate a sense of weakness you're feeling at the moment. You try to align yourself with ther people's actions instead of making your own choice. Guilt and worry might lead you to draw crosses and zeroes. Maybe you're uncomfortable with the way someone is manipulating you. Solving this porblem can help your peace of mind

That I found scares me really. What I always draw are the ones I bolded. Damn. What are yours? Maybe we could talk about it in formspring. I'm bored and lonely.....

//What the world don't know

2010-10-21T21:36:00.000+08:00

“Yes. Those babies are lying on concrete.

Yes. That bottle is empty.

Yes. Those are mosquitos swarming their little bodies.

Yes. This is the condition of Pakistan, at the moment.

A couple of weeks have gone by since the floods in Pakistan have flowed and the number of people effected by this are staggering & record breaking.

Over 20 MILLION PEOPLE.

That is MORE THAN THE COMBINED TOTAL of the 2004 Tsunami, the 2005 Kashmir earthquake, the 2010 Haiti earthquake, and the American Katrina disaster.

How many of you knew about this? It’s a shame at the extreme lack of coverage on this horrific disaster. Pakistan is getting MINIMAL help.

Ignorance never ends, a recent poll was taken in America on whether if they would donate or have donated to Pakistan or not. 67% DO NOT wish or want to help Pakistan. 67%.

And as for the donations that are being sent… 60% of aid needed now, has not been delivered. Who has them & why haven’t they reached the public?

I was born in Karachi, Pakistan. My city is located in the south region of Pakistan (Sindh province). I can not fathom the words….The amount of hurt I am feeling.

No one is helping.

I try to blog about it daily…only getting a few notes or so..I post a picture of myself and income the notes and comments. What I’m trying to say is, Please…take note of this. These people are innocent and now they are homeless and sick. Children are dying quickly due to the lack of care. People have drowned, crops are ruined..animals are dead, & homes are gone. It is being speculated that my city will eventually drown since it’s already low. The floods haven’t hurt my region yet but they have affected my friends & families home and so many other innocent people.

This picture breaks my heart..I want you all to look at this picture. What do you see?

Do you see terrorists? Do you see future killers? Do you see another plot against America? Do you see that in those mosquitoes that can possibly and most likely have left diseases such as malaria? Do you see harm in that empty bottle?

Extremists are the ones to blame, not Muslims. Why should we be left hopeless? We didn’t do anything.

And as for the Qu’ran burning this weekend in Florida, I believe….

The thought of that night makes me cry. Do you all understand the severity and ignorance of that act? Why isn’t anyone stopping them? My religion, my faith didn’t hurt you. EXTREMISTS DID. They are NOT religious. My faith is NOT a cult.

I don’t know what to do. I honestly don’t know. I’ve never felt this helpless. No one is helping, no one cares. Fuck neither do my own best friends know much about this.

Just look at this picture and think about what you’ve just read.

Help. Please.

If you can…I’m not asking for a shitload of cash. But please, try to donate. Donating to UNICEF will send aid to children. Donate to the Red Cross & the UN Foundation. I trust the most in these three foundations, they’ve actually managed to send and successfully help the victims.

One-fifth of the country is under water; 20 million+ people are homeless. All I ask if for you to help a little and spread awareness.”

//Purple Awareness

2010-10-20T13:46:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone, so my blog's background is in purple, and I know the htmls are all out of place but just let it be.

Today is the 20th of October, and wear purple to honor the six gay teens that committed suicide.

Their story, Read here : http://sapphiresailor.tumblr.com/post/1313420904/they-have-names-and-stories

//Killer Whale

2010-10-18T00:17:00.002+08:00

I want an orca plushie.

Can somebody get me that for my birthday?

:-'(

//Deep Sea Diver

2010-10-16T18:48:00.002+08:00

There's nothing interesting in my life right now that I can begin with. Sigh. Everyday its all about waking up, contemplate whether to go school or not, complain, procrastinate at studying. The damn cycle repeats itself.

Anyway on Friday saw myself catching Charlie St Cloud with Jess J and Jess's friends.

This is her anxious-excited face.

Anyway I love bookstores. Ok this is super random but I haven't really "talked" in a while you see..I have all these thoughts in my head and plans and stuff that I want to buy every book by Haruki Murakami (Go google him if you don't know who is he) and there are sooo many books I want to buy right now like Backwards In High Heels......books by VintageBooks♥ and some by Penguin Books.

Whaaaaa so many novels I want to read but none of the school textbooks or reference books that I want to read for my upcoming finals. Hahahaha ya very pathetic right. Procrastinate all the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy. So going to fail this finals.

Today during breakfast :

Testing the Positive Film.

BW film

The double shots.... (ok!ok! I should prolly stop posting pictures of soya bean drinks)

OK SIGH BYE NOW........................

Can't wait for the finals to be over. Freaking close to one month. H8 this. So so so many plans after the finals. Really can't wait. AND I CAN'T WAIT TO WEAR PANTS TO AN EVENT THAT I THINK I'D PROLLY GET DENIED ACCESS INTO HA. HA. HA. Never felt so good backing someone up. Or, going-to in that case...

I had the weirdest dream during my sleep from 8pm to 7am (15-16th october). It involves two guys...blood....truth....character....me....and guilt. Don't think I'd ever forget this dream of mine. Its a gross dream but I want to get back into it. Sick, so sick. And the weirdest part is that the dream is so real, vivid. The pain, the voices, the touch, the place, the colours, the feelings..I'm scared it might be one of the de-ja-vu moments. Or maybe its because of Charlie St Cloud the movie, am i thinking too much? hahaha. Or maybe it all really happened. Damn. And I'm wondering if the two person I dreamt of dreamt this dream too?

//Until Ruby Rises

2010-10-14T18:53:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday dinner with my bestfriend, My Best Frenz & Family.

Mango Cake I bought for my Best Frenz

Photobomb

Anyway I lost to Jonathan. Damn. 16yrs old vs 9 yrs old, the younger one wins. Great

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Yesterday :

Mojo Jojo

Winnie with Victoria Mum Bear

Chilli The Snake

"蛇"吻 Hahahaha

Ok finish already byebye all.

//Midnight Snack

2010-10-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

ph. from http://blog.pei2.com/2010/02/tao-kae-noi-hot-chilli-squid-vs-tao-kae.html

THIS IS SO GOOD. And its a product from Thailand I always thought it was from Japan. Haha. Anyway, if you drop by any supermarket/hypermarket don't forget to buy it! (No this is not a paid advertorial hahaha) BUY THE CRISPY ONE. Taste better than the normal one.

Ok i dunno why but i just feel like sharing. haha. ok la bye!!

//Day 10 : One confession

2010-10-11T10:22:00.002+08:00

1. Its just......I was never happy throughout this year. You guys probably think that I am a happy cheerful girl but deep down, nope. I'm a girl, brimming with issues, fighting with herself to stand still. All these while, I pretended to be nonchalant (am still). So there you go, now you know I'm not that tough afterall..

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Songs that best describe myself and my life right now :

O WELL Today is the 10th day of the 10 days thing. No fun. Bailed out on school today..cooping myself up at home to study (yes, you heard that right!) and then tuition later. Sian times400000008. Anyway I think I'm gonna nap for a while. HAHA

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HI ALL I HAVE A NEW TUMBLR. With total different objectives. My new tumblr is where I document what's in my inspiration folder. Check it out!!

HTTP://SAPPHIRESAILOR.TUMBLR.COM

Oh, does anyone has a tumblr here? Tell me!

//Day 9 : Two smileys that describe your life now

2010-10-10T00:55:00.001+08:00

I want galaxy-like nail polish

1. >:'/
2. :-|

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"I just want to be happy. I want everybody to be happy at the end of the day"

"I'm a lot better before you really know me"

"Remember your cat that disappeared? I ran over it"

"You know all those books I have and I don't let you read?" "Yeah" "Its just all these love poems that I wrote about you"

"My girlfriend's bed"

"Space. Mars. I bet the bed is much more comfortable in Mars."

"In a pink bubble. Floating above the clouds. Filled with ping pong balls."

"Paradise" "Where's paradise?" "A serene place, no worries"

//Day 8 : Three turn ons

2010-10-09T11:00:00.016+08:00

(EDIT)

Hahaha I can't believe I did "Three turn offs" when its supposed to be "Three turn ons" I must be blind. No wonder I was thinking "What a weird thing why can't it just be Seven turn offs." Lol. Thank you Anonymous for telling me (= So anyway here's it :

1. Guys that dress well <3
2. People that smell good <3 <3
3. Guys that have a nicely built body with a killer smile <3 <3 <3

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# Think how many people have sat next to you on a bus, train, whatever. Now think how many people have sat next to you on purpose, with their fingers crossed in hope that you’ll talk to them. I’m sure somebody has. There’s plenty of times when somebody’s seen you and hoped that you spoke to them, but you never did, ‘cause you don’t have the guts, and neither do they. Don’t go around thinking nobody likes you and that you’re not loved, there’s been plenty of times when a stranger’s spotted you and thought “oh they’re just my type,” but haven’t had the courage or confidence to open their mouth and initiate a conversation, the funny thing is, neither have you.

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Click on the image ↑
(I promise I won't waste your time. This is the best youtube video creation I've ever seen)

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Oh by the way, I will try to upload a video or two (or more) per post posted from today onwards. I figured videos are a good way to connect with people with the same thinking. Do you have any videos to recommend? Send the link to me on formspring.me . My formspring is so dead nobody asks me question. FOREVER ALONE. Hahaha.

//Day 7 : Four Turn Offs

2010-10-08T14:53:00.002+08:00

1. Girls with long hairs that untie their hair after school in school uniform, then out shopping/wandering around in public places seemingly tryna "catch people's attention" with their long flowwwwyyyy hair. GURL~~~YOU LOOK LIKE CRAP. What's the point of them untie-ing their hair when they look SO MUCH BETTER with their hair all up. I don't get it, I really don't.
2. People that criticises others just to make themselves/someone else feel better. What's the point of it all? You don't need someone else to cover up your flaws.
3. Girls that giggle all-day-&-night long. Seriously......? Is it even THAT funny?
4. People who are full of themselves.

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Pictures :

Emy's open house! Thanks to Iqah and Roguy's dad for the ride there (=

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" ...And space is the place"

By the way, I deactivated my Facebook account. Its just me with blogger, twitter, formspring and tumblr now.

//Day 6 : Five people who mean a lot (in no order)

2010-10-07T16:15:00.001+08:00

1. Olivia How
2. Evelyn Chew
3. Joanne Chian
4. Besties
5. Buddies

I'm sorry I could'nt name no:4 and no:5 because I can't narrow down to whom because all of them matters, when they are already my selected few whom I call as Besties and Buddies, That wouldn't be fair.

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Some kinda cute pouch huh? The insides of it is printed with air mail air mail air mail air mail hahahhaa :')

At the public library last week

*********************************Yesterday's :

On bus on the way to Tebrau City... It took us an hour to reach there and I almost died in there my head ached like mad and THE SMELL. HWUAHHH. I went ALL the way up there by bus just to collect my jeans............................

AND THEN :

FASHION FAST FORWARD DECIDES TO HAVE THEIR ANNUAL DINNER ON THAT NIGHT THANKS YEAH I REALLY NEED THAT.

There goes my trip up there. Ugh.

Thanks Winnie for accompanying me vice versa. Oh well at least the guy working at Nike was cute......... :')

Do you know how annoying it is to travel all the way up there and get to know that the shop is closed? Damn.

BUT ANYHOW.....When I reached home at around 8PM, small brown box greeted me hello! I jumped in joy went all the way up from downstairs to upstairs "wooohoooooo"-ing. hahaha.

Do you... want to know what's in it???

Do you....know what's in it??

Ooooooooooo small white box.......

YEAH BABY ITS THE NEW iPOD NANO 6GEN. IN RED! =D =D =D =D

Hwahahahaha I had it engraved "to infinity and beyond" That phrase really mean a lot to me. And i got it in red because its nice?? and an apple exclusive so yeah its gonna be rare to find people with the same ipod colour as mine. Oh! If you have a nano6, our ipods could be friends.. heheheh :')

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Some heartwarming video, though it has no dialogue.

SOME AMAZING MUSIC VIDEO. Watch it if you haven't. Been meaning to post this up for the longest time but I guess I forgot about it..........

Enjoy the videos! Going to Emy's open house tonight heeeheee fooooood.

//Day 5 : Six things you wish you'd never done

2010-10-06T13:12:00.002+08:00

Wasn't at home on the 6th of May 2009. Maybe then I could have saved myself from feeling so horrible every time something reminded it of it and maybe stop blaming myself that what happened is because of me. I still believe presence makes a difference.
Stopped fighting back for myself and gave in.
Buy those 234567890187530 things that I've never used, now chucked to the side.
SLACK THIS WHOLE YEAR
Start an online business. Now I'm just so damn lazy to keep it up.
Steal

//Day 4 : Seven things that crosses your mind a lot

2010-10-05T13:00:00.002+08:00

Who will be my husband and how he will look like? Or even better, my first boyfriend?
Will I continue studying even after I completed my lifelong dream as a stewardess in the future?
I need confidence.
How and when will I die? /Morbid
What is the life of an animal?
When will I finally finish reading a book!!!!!
Why are the shampoo and conditioner packed differently? Can't they be of the same pack? Like, two compartments in a bottle..Hmmmm

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Pictures :

Teenz GAP Food Fair on last Sunday (3rd of October)

By the way, I recently got my bank account drained. I am quite sad and excited at the same time. Wooohoooo

//DAY 3 : Eight ways to win your heart

2010-10-04T12:50:00.002+08:00

Your smile. Your killer smile.
Little things like holding the door for me, letting me go up the bus first, letting me walk the inside lane, telling me/showing me things that reminded you of me..
Be willing to accompany me for shopping
Be filial
Never ever give up on me
Serenade a song
Texts me at random moments
Accepts me for who I am --being comfortable with me

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Pictures :

This, my friend, is my favourite drink.

Calculating the Body Mass Index with the iphone calculator which can probably just.....die off

Ya I like to sit kangkang like that

There was a reason behind this 'face'

Best photo taken that day. Cuz dont have out faces haha

Ham Sap Toufu Lou

Eat the shoe

Do you know what I'm doing in that photo? I'm shooting you using my shoe ha ha ok lame

Have a good day everybody!

//Day 2 : Nine things about yourself

2010-10-03T17:53:00.002+08:00

I used to be a big bully in kindergarten and primary school. I used to fight all day long with the boys. Sometimes with the girls too. (eg : Kicked a guy down the stairs... Locked a girl in a room... Pinched a girl really hard and refused to let go... Chased guys around the school... Threw a shoe at a guy... Slapped a guy... Punched guys... Pulled their hair (even though they are botak)...)
My favourite soya bean drink is Vitamilk (the bottled one) from Thailand.
I really really really really really really really really really really really really really WANT and NEED to become an air stewardess.
I suck in Math. I've failed Math twice in Primary 4. And I really really don't like it because of certain reasons I don't wish to reveal.
My first bestfriend was a guy. I only had girl bestfriends when I'm Primary 5.
And I really want a gay bestfriend. Perhaps not now but some point in my life later.
My favourite colour is Purple (I assume Black and White aren't colours but monochromatic) but I don't like wearing Purple. I just like seeing things purple in colour. Preferably walls that are purple in colour.
I know beau are pronounced as bhou but for some weird stupid reason I always pronounce it as bew in my head.
I think my life is pointless. Not that I’m suicidal, but I feel like I have no direction in my life. What was I born into this world for? What am I supposed to do? Am I supposed to just exist?

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Pictures from some time back :

Liverpool VS Man U match at City Plaza the last Sunday before school reopens after the 2 weeks break. Liverpool lost 3-2. There was some Diva king karaoke going on that night and I personally think the first singer was the best amongst all of the others participants. Had a hard time hearing them sing that night.

//Day 1 : Ten things you want to say to ten different people

2010-10-02T13:41:00.001+08:00

1. Yes, I may be spending a lot but I know my limits therefore I do not need a "you are spoilt" or a "rich brat" coming down on me because I clearly know that I am neither of those and it hurts me after hearing those judgements.
2. Please don't lie to me.
3. I wish we stayed in contact. And sometimes I do really wonder if you really do miss me at all?
4. Thank you for being a friend to me. I am bad at expressing gratitudes but I really do hope you will feel my sincerity in my Thank-You.
5. Why do I keep falling for people I don't know?
6. You don't know how miserable you made me feel by judging me, and I feel so insignificant. You made me feel shit.
7. I hope you realise how many lives you screwed.
8. Eat shit and die.
9. Victoria isn't my fake name. Its the formal form of Vicky. I hate explaining this.
10. Stop being such manipulative person, I can see right through you.

//10 days

2010-10-01T21:53:00.000+08:00

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people
Day Two: Nine things about yourself
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order)
Day Seven: Four turn offs
Day Eight: Three turn ons
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life now
Day Ten: One confession

Got this from an inspiring blog. And yes, I'm going to start doing it starting tomorrow since I have nothing much to do and bored like that-----

//Flightless

2010-09-30T20:31:00.001+08:00

Hello so I kinda broke my "promise" or what I've said about not coming online. Well well, so I was busy the past week with Janice's 21st Birthday that's why I didn't update my blog that much. I still have unuploaded photos that are waiting to be posted. Photos from Mel's open house.

Oh here's some pictures for you. There are more with me but I havent got the chance to transfer them into my comp and my camera is on vacation with my sister now.

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I've got my study mode ON now. What about you?

//Soft focus

2010-09-27T21:54:00.001+08:00

Quite some time since I last posted a recent photo of me right..?

Right now I look like this therefore I don't update frequently :

Hahaha..hahaha..haha..ha..ha..ha....ha......ha. Ok fine! Not funny!

Lol been busy these few days. Haven't got much time to rest. Exhausted. But here are some photobooth photos (I have access to it because my sister is back!)

When my sis is back, the whole room becomes a total mess and there are confirm fights and arguments going around its so annoying. AND SHE BROKE MY EXTENSION WIRE. That means no more access to my laptop (ok la I have the access to its just that I'm lazy to charge it lol) and my bedside lamp can't be on and I can't charge my phone!!! Actually I'm just lazy to walk a few steps to the primary plug. Oh well.

But I like it that she's back....sometimes.

I have soooo many plans in my head right now. I guess I'm still in the "planning" mood. Hahaha. I really can't wait for this end of the year! And after SPM..Have so much plans in my head right now its not even healthy.

I think I should get off the internet for a while.. (or rather get of blogging. I'd still be on formspring and facebook(only approving friend requests lol) Time to actually STUDY! Would you believe me if I told you I don't know a single shit about Chemistry and Biology and Sejarah? Sejarah is the worst! Throughout this year I haven't touch the book at all! For about 10 mins yes, but never really did read it.

Ok Im getting chatty and boring so..

Bye all!